Falling Like A Movie Star

Blog No. 2

“Boy walks into (insert place) and sees girl for the first time.  Boy falls madly in love and has to pursue girl at all cost no matter what other people think or what barriers stand in his way.”

Getting make-up for a movie. Get it, I’m a star.

This has never happened to me.  Has it happened to anyone?  (I would love to hear if it has).  I don’t think I am in the minority.  I’ve seen girls and been attracted to them, but I have never made it my life’s quest to be with someone I have just met, (or just seen as the story goes).

I’ve been in love, I’m certain of that, (I wasn’t at the time, I certainly wasn’t right after).  I wrote a poem about it, but it was terrible, (not in the I hate everything I do even though I keep doing it, but in the, I was too young to know what I was talking about and I am in no place to revisit the concept at my current age).  It was messy and wonderful and hurt like hell when it ended, (the love not the poem).  I wouldn’t hesitate to do it again, but I can’t believe in blind spontaneous love.

Maybe it’s me.  Maybe I’m jaded or broken, (or just being overly dramatic), but I think I am an open minded person.  Am I old fashioned?  I’m not that old, (I tend to think I am, but I’m told by others that I am still very young).  Besides, the concept has been illustrated in books and movies and poetry long before my time.

Wishful thinking is my only explanation, fantasy and dreams.  I’m not against the idea of passionate instantaneous love, but I think the work it takes to build a relationship, (though it may not be as fun as the chase), is what I remember most fondly looking back.

I didn’t want this entry to be a cautionary tale, or a warning.  I just felt nostalgic and had something to say about the idea of falling in love.  I think love, like most things take time and a hell of a lot of work.  Sometimes its worth is and sometimes not.  I think I’m just one of those people who doesn’t fall hard.  I wonder if it’s fun.